The Ole Oscar Theater in
New York was a shithole, Luke thought to himself. A comedian has to
start from somewhere, he would say to his friends after the fifth
round of shots at the Lab. Yep, we all do, one would say, and what
about hecklers? Luke would pour himself another one, down the
hatchet, a cool grin and “that shit makes you tougher doncha think?
It gives you character, talent alone is nothing boys, you should know
that by now...”
In those nights at the
Lab there was always the man to
whom they owed the rent. A comedian too, an old one, Lenny
Bruce style, sitting in a wheeled chair behind them with the gazette
always at the same page, the horses, a matter that had brought him in
the audience for once, winning money or losing money, no shakes, no
embarrassing silence and no fame, just some win win extra buck with
no kicker.
Occasionally Luke would
look at him, the only source of doubt for what he was saying, a piece
of a fussy audience that man was, while those scared boys would yeah
yeah Luke like little monkeys holding hands in circle, all scared of
the stage.
Fifty miles far from the
Lab Luke had lost that cool grin of his. He wasn't home, his father
wasn't there either and he would really need to get some confidence
and some sense of belonging now. His father Jonah was at work,
struggling to make ends meet in this recession.
Tense like a howl sitting
on a thin branch he moved his eyes from the leather cushions to a big
tall glass of tap water in front of him. He felt like he had to drink
it all as if he was in some strange hospital, humor surgery, yeah,
but was he that good? Fuck it. What the fuck, fucking job... Hecklers
were already shouting out there, beyond that thick crimson curtain,
getting warmed up for the hunt: let's bring him down, let's pay these
five bucks and have a laugh just like in High School ok? You're all
set guys? And then a greedy Hitchcock-like “yees...” just when
the curtain was slowly pulled open and revealed the dark mahogany
stage where the bird was going to put his tiny hairless foot. Woop
woop! And Yeah, ALRIGHT!! All those c'mons hollered from the back row
where the “Heckler's spectators” were sitting ready to watch
their show.
Luke appeared showing a
two-bit worth confident smile, he didn't even look like he was out of
control on purpose, as many comedians would rather go for, and he
happened to be there without a plan. He knew for a fact that the
owner wanted him to finish earlier so that those naked girls could
get on stage. Smudged and confused notes came up to his mind
altogether: smokers, white is beautiful, the coward street fighter,
Scranton police, girlfriends on bachelor's parties, weed, Nixon
horsefucked in prison, dykes on holidays, fuck English, how I spent
the first day with my dick, satisfied taxpayers, limo hookers, Elvis
taking a crap while singing, my new van, let's get high, and finally
his favorite let's kill dogs and avoid war... The long list was
scrolling down too quickly in his head and he couldn't catch any of
those lines. He looked at the green emergency exit. I'm fucked, he
thought while the seconds passed and the temperature in the audience
got hotter. Oh yes, he could already spot the hint of an
unfair phrase out of the lips of those unfriendly faces. Fuck it.
Hi... I'm Luke and I'm a
comedian...
Silence, just a quick
“hurry up!” shouted a guy with a big coke from the front seat.
You know, what I don't
understand about comedy gigs is that huge glass of water they want
you to drink. Why not whiskey uh?
Silence.
…You know I've drank it
all and now I need to take a long leak... So? What's it about? Do
they want me to finish earlier cause
the guy has to clean the crapper before ten?
Silence. Luke thought
that one of those clues at the Lab was just right for the intro:
“Forget about the list, just improvise some stuff that they can
see: a stool, a glass of water, the curtain. Make them feel like you
are a good improviser and you'll win their respect.”
A possible sign of
appreciation from the audience, if real, was not to be put into
words, but just the low breathe and the sound of straws shaking ice
in the cocktails.
You know? I was born in
Fyffe...
Heckler: Where is that?
Oh it's Alabama man...
He wasn't even born in
Alabama, a Brooklyn Jew he was, but he thought that he could create
something funny out of that lie, and he was wrong now that it was too
late.
Heckler: The fuck are you
doin' here?
(Laugh)
Oh well, I get paid to
make you laugh asshole...
Luke knew that he had
pushed it too far and too soon. But those excited verses from the
women out there made him stronger. Problem was what's next to that?
He knew it was just a jolly, a sparkle of nitro for a slow car
running in a straight line, and what about the incoming bends? What
about those driving skills? What about talent and character? A
suspended bunch of glorious seconds were to disappear soon to leave
him in a new and even worst beginning. He knew that, so he rushed it.
And what's that lousy
Jamaican shirt you're wearing pal?
A collective laughter,
definitively brief.
This is not Cancun
mister, this is the Ole Oscar friend... And Luke looked around as if
he was not sure about the
importance of that name. And they laughed, and finally he
thought he was on the right track. Only that guy wouldn't let it go
that easily, they were still even after all.
Heckler: you got
something against my shirt jerkoff?
Oh no, not at all, just
against who's wearing it, that's too much for you sir, you look like
an optical illusion...
He knew that last phrase
was too long, it did sound like a conversation bit, nothing like a
comedian on stage. Just two people
arguing in the street, that's what it looked like, and why a comedian
should do that? Where was the difference? That heckler wasn't going
too far, it was his job, and Luke's job was to stall it with style,
evoking people's laughter to shut him up, make him hesitate so that
he could grab the ball and get on with his act again.
Do you know how many
smokers live in Fyffe? Jeezus,
would you believe me if I tell you that...
Hecker: I wouldn't
believe to any of that shit you gonna say anyway bozo...
Oh... Is that a fact?
Heckler: Yeah!
Oh yeah?
Heckler: Yeah!
Right...
Voices
had destroyed the previous calm of a difficult game yet still open,
some laughing and some booing at Luke. All it had been ruined now,
that sacred silence was gone. It was the democratic chance of every
comedian who would step in that cage of lions that now had been
covered with soap. Luke reckoned
that he still had to learn how. His act was over. The heckler had
won. Ashamed like hell Luke was now standing there with the mike up
is ass. Then he came off the stage facing the boos of the front row
with that guy still calling him looser, go home and whatnot.
When the girls started to
dance a lousy can-can all half-naked Luke was already having a light
beer alone, small tears in his eyes, his hands clasped in two fists.
The owner's head popped
out of the big crowd like a plastic puppet reciting “you don't even
get the open bar tonight boy, and what's with that stunt anyway? Man
up Luke, and do it fast for another place cause from now on you're
just another customer here. I don't wanna see your ass on that stage
anymore, okay?
He
arrived home with his red Chevette whose scratches were covered with
stickers saying “laugh at name and I'll get paid”, “I'm not a
man, I'm a comedian”, “Yes I know, I'm driving a shit-car”,
“Call me loser please”, “One day you gonna read of me” and so
forth...
His old man and him had
been living in a old house for twenty-six years, which was Luke's age
and just half of his mother's when she had reached heaven after
having bounced on Manhattan's asphalt.
That same old house
seemed haunted that night that had finished too early for Luke. He
opened the front door and went to the kitchen, put together a baloney
& mayo sandwich, grabbed a coke from the fridge and turned the
small TV set on. A reporter was trying to say something under a cloud
of dust, a twin set of skyscrapers had collapsed behind his back.
America would air that tape forever, and Luke turned it off, tired to
see more of that sad footage after seven years, now that offices were
the most safe places in town, being no people in them.
Outside the kitchen
window a parade of sport cars slowly cruised down the road. Those
powerful engines muttered something bad in the chilly air, and it
reminded Luke of that fucking guy in the audience, trying to waste
his act all the time. That bastard owned him from a privileged
position, so easy, thought Luke. And what about the people who had
paid five dollars for the show? He fucking hated the guy.
He stepped on the stairs,
no sound from the first floor.
Dad?
Silence. That heckler's
voice was sill bouncing like a spiky little ball in his head.
Dad?
Walking the dim corridor
he got no answer, maybe he was sleeping. That early? Luke wondered if
everything had to be fucking early that night. He entered his
father's room, Jonah as in “Jonah and the whale”, real Jewish.
Dad? Dinner?
The bed was empty, but
Luke saw one hand lying on the floor beside the bed. Fuck!
Dad! Oh God. The ambulance got there but it was too late. Jonah had
killed himself putting some lye in a full glass of lemon cordial. He
had left a piece of paper on the bed. Luke read it again and again
sitting alone in the kitchen.
A man without a job is
not a man anymore son.
Forgive me,
your father.
The crack had brought the
Lebovits to their knees. Their bank account had been frozen for
months and bills were long as cheap toilet paper. Not a word, Luke
was intelligent enough to understand how his father's smile had
changed during that 2008. But he was a good man, the best man on
earth.
On
Bar Mitzvah Jonah gave to his son some toys and a nice comedy
record: The Andy Kaufman Special aka Andy's Funhouse, recorded
1977 and aired on ABC in 1979.
Luke thought about that
voice changing, making impressions and then becoming real again, the
voice of a sad man who just wanted to please himself, that was it. He
wanted to make himself laugh first of all that Andy. Audience's
reaction was a consequence of it and nothing more; he wouldn't care
and they would laugh, he owned the stage as a shy guy whose act was
perfect, locked up in his own world, high quality art.
Luke would put much
effort into being normal, confident, and that would crash him before
he could make the difference. There had been comedians too afraid of
locking themselves up, even the big ones, miserably laughing at their
own jokes to fill up that embarrassing silence, trying to be cool
just like the audience did whenever it turned into a stupid giant
with no face, a bunch of human beings backing up the heckler or the
satisfied one just the get an identity in the group, so easy. “The
more risk a comedian takes the more bravos he would get in the end”,
the Lab would teach him, but it was a very thin line to walk and Luke
knew it.
After the death of his
father he practiced in the mirror for three month, but still he
couldn't get what he wanted. Vanity would precede him. So he moved
away from it and turned on the camera. At the beginning he couldn't
get rid of the electronic eye but in time he would go down to the
kitchen, eat his sandwich and suddenly remember that it was all on
tape. Then he would watch himself changing expressions and vocabulary
inside his most familiar environment, but still it wasn't enough. It
seemed too easy and unnatural.
When he realized that he
needed a job he got it in one day: Kitchen Porter in a Thai
restaurant downtown, he said to his father tomb before laying a rock
on his grave. He started to cry at night thinking of him but he would
always get up early in the morning when all New York City seemed as
if it was built that same night, ready for hope and progress. He
would cycle to the City Hall, put his backpack down and an empty
paper glass in front of him. Then he would start talking as if he
wouldn't care, taking a big load off, moving his hands all over his
body just like he did under the shower, singing occasionally and
removing with all those clever lines all the grease that American
society would dump on individuals. Luke would see amidst the people a
giant moving on fake behalf of its single members, talking politics
and smiling like an hypocrite. The way he would show this grudge
would make him look like an unintended creep that was left alone in
his room to complain with himself, and all the people in the street
would laugh at him as they never did and as if they didn't want him
to notice. Luke had never thought comedy could have been so real.
One night he decided to
get back to the Ole Oscar. There in his mind was still the memory of
that night with the heckler and that dead hand beside his father's
bed.
The owner didn't
recognize him, Luke was just another asshole booed on stage after
all. He left the glass full of water on the stool and moved away the
curtain. The people down there were talking loud and didn't expect
him to start that soon but nobody complained.
Sorry I'm early but I
don't care, really I'm sorry folks but I couldn't give a shit...
He looked honestly
stressed and a couple laughed immediately at that opening. That
heckler was there, same seat, drinking his tall soda. Luke spotted
him and his mind didn't even go “what the hell”, he just went
after him as if he was somebody that happened to be in his
cross-hairs for too long.
Say man? Why are you
looking at my dick?
Laughs.
Heckler: Hey how you
doin' darlin'? What you gonna do this time? Run?
Luke remained serious
till he could, than he panicked for a bit and returned to the heckler
pretending to be someone who was afraid of get beaten up in the
street. The rest of the audience saw him taking off his shirt and
jumping as a the slimmest boxer they had ever seen.
No man, I'm gonna stay
here just for you... ding, let's fight the heckler... bum bum, bum
bum!
He pretended he was
boxing with him, a real looser living in a world of his own, fighting
the dragon with a wooden sword. That number had been a must for
comedians as Richard Pryor in the seventies: a ridicule slim boxer
trying to scare the big one.
More couples began to
laugh: the show had been unpredictable and funny till that moment and
there was nothing better for five bucks.
What's your name Ace?
Heckler: “fuck you”
is my name bozo...
Suddenly Luke got what
hecklers were about: angry people with no creativity, not even the
two-bit fast rebuttal you would get arguing in the streets. They
would just take advantage of their easy power by bombing a difficult
profession. Most of the times, Luke reckoned, they would show more
muscles than brain, sitting aside some tits and legs with a nasal
voice who would get wet on some man's talk.
Alright, listen Fuckyou,
I went downtown the other day, I cycled all the way to fuckin'
Manhattan and I saw a couple of Fuckyous in front of Ground Zero ok?
Do you remember what happened? – alright, maybe you were watching
American Gladiator and drinking a flat can of Miller and whispering
some “Too Fast and Too Furious” bullshit to your lady
“Titsandlegs” over there – but I have some consideration of
your tribe and I'll tell you what happened alright?
Luke got the attention of
the audience, his flanks were almost covered now, but he had to keep
on. It was a risky improvisation and yet a story was about to be
told.
This tribe of yours man
is a pure fuck-up lemme tell ya... Do you know how to spot a Fuckyou
member in the street? Ok, ok... Folks you're lucky tonight, you got
yourselves the biggest sample you'll ever get, but I wasn't this
lucky you know?
I was crossing the street
with that big nowhere in front of my face reminding me how words fly
even higher than planes when I hear a voice behind me saying “That's
fucking huge Wendy! Jesus Wendy! Do you see that?” I tell you,
Wendy was having fries while trying to walk as a Dalì elephant on
her ten-inch stilettos. Her MacDonald big ass would nod the slowest
“no” on earth folks, and it meant that no other chick, not even
Paris Hilton could have his own Fuckyou boyfriend. He was her own
fuck-up deal guys, cause who among the “chewing mortals” would
walk her around all the time believing the fact that a giant
“Taylorist burger burp” could mean true love to him, that making
love to a nail-painted pudding could make him fart as he was still
ten, feeling all the luv in the world while watching what
those Islam warriors had done to his country and his flag.
Audience was hypnotized.
I tell you folks, I was
trying not to, I know I got a job to do and since I'm cooooomedian
and I have to make you laugh... I must take the shit out of these
Fuckyou boys and Titsandlegs women all the time, even tonight, right
boy? He concluded addressing the heckler.
Heckler: FUCK YOU MAN!!
I'LL FUCK YOU UP KNOW!!
You see what I'm saying
folks??
And everybody laughed
crazy. It was a real show, and even more real when the heckler jumped
on the stage and started running after Luke who was still engaging
the audience with “you see what I'm saying?” Then the heckler's
girlfriend hollered “Fuck him up Jim!” but Jim had too many fat
muscles to get a hold on Luke who had stepped out of the stage and
now was shaking hands to all the people who could hardly believe that
it had been a total improvisation.
At a certain point, tired
to run, he went outside through the emergency exit. The audience
followed him in the silent street of another night started early and
already about to finish.
Luke grabbed a yellow
plastic cone from the asphalt and started to wave it at Jim like a
sword. Jim ran toward him as a raging bull but Luke felt ready and
still sober like in all those five weeks after that miserable night.
He waited for the right
moment and then he hit Jim from above as a crazy toreador. The
fuck-up beast bit the dust and closed his eyes. The people stopped
laughing. The police came, handcuffed Luke who watched out of the car
window and saw that old comedian from the Lab shaking his head from
the top of his wheeled chair.
Luke Lebovitz managed to
be a comedian, but never a man.
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